Friday, October 29, 2010
Power
I had ONE difficult day this week in regards to all the non-pregnancy stuff and I've been thinking a bit lately about my purpose here on Earth and how I'm not sure I have one. Like maybe I'm not meant for something really. Which I wholly believe isn't true, but sometimes you have those days, you know? Where you don't feel you're getting to use your talents or your interests except for a few hours a week? And surely God wouldn't have given me this heart and this mind if all I was supposed to do was doodle on a note pad while I'm answering phones at a desk job or just visit other people's kids now and again but not have any of my own. Surely I wasn't meant to be where I am. But this sounds like whining to me, so let's move on.
Even though I had those heavy thoughts lately, they didn't pull me under like bad days sometimes do. They didn't grab hold and seep their sticky sadness into the rest of me. And that got me thinking about the fact that I have really been in a great place lately. It's been a long time since I've been dragged down by depression. Like... longer than I ever remember going before between bouts of sadness. Like... over a year maybe. And friends, I cannot tell you how excited I've been by this realization. Progress maybe? Hormonal changes maybe? Diet and exercise lately has helped, I'm sure. Maybe I'm just growing up.
Sure I have bad days now and again like I did this week, but they don't seem endless. And they don't seem so absolutely insurmountable. And they don't seem all encompassing. They feel like something I can handle. The amount of thankfulness I feel about that can't really be described to you. I can tell you that I'm tearing up as I'm writing this because I'm so overwhelmingly full of thankfulness. I can tell you that I want to hug the neck of Christ and jump up and down with Him saying, "thank you, thank you, thank you!" over and over like I'm 8 years old and He's just given me a new pink bicycle with sparkles on the handlebars and a little basket in the front for keeping dolls and treasures. I can tell you a lot of things about the way it makes me feel, but I won't do it justice.
When I was putting together this blog post, I was looking back through some older blog posts about my history of depression and I saw this post about a sense of peace and contentment I had exactly this time last year. And then when I read the last paragraph of that post in October 2009 I wanted to tell the world that prayer is a mighty warrior when you don't feel like standing up to fight for yourself.
So I guess that's what I came here to say today. I had a bad day. I'm doing fine. Prayer works.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
About the Man


- He knows the quickest way to make me angry. And he uses it because he thinks it's funny. It is not funny. But sometimes it IS funny. He's the only person who can make me laugh by making me mad. It's not fair play.
- When he's bored, he starts little projects and obsesses over them until they are finished and working correctly. We are the same in that.
- We do NOT work well together on little projects (staining fences, for example.) Sometimes we forget this and work together on something. Quickly we remember.
- He lost his wedding ring in the lake a couple summers ago and spent an unhealthy amount of time at the bottom of the lake looking for it. So long that his ears became swollen and sore for a few days because of all the pressure change. He never found it.
- In the middle of the night, he sometimes talks in his sleep and says really funny or really frightening things. Like, "why are you here?" or "spoon with me."
- He can eat so.much.food. Especially breakfast food. He loves the fact that IHOP has unlimited pancakes, eggs, and hashbrowns for $4.99. He would love to tell you about it if given the chance.
- He's always wanted to adopt, but I didn't know until we were in Haiti and he casually brought it up.
- It's hilarious to watch him try on a pair of shoes at the store. I can't even explain it other than, he's very thorough in his trying on.
- Best snuggler ever.
- He reads my blog. Love you Davie! All your rotten obnoxiousness, all your goofy faces, and all your other stuff.
Monday, October 25, 2010
The Wild Woods
Saturday we took off toward Montgomery Bell State Park for a small camping trip with friends. The weather was absolutely perfect, the trees were just at their peak of changing, and the mix-tape was excellent (if I do say so myself.)

We did some hiking, some sitting around the campfire, and the tiniest bit of fishing. Which was mostly watching our 4 year old friend do the fishing since he's the only one that didn't need a fishing license.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Fall Staple





Monday, October 18, 2010
Early Fall Jams
My pictures from the pumpkin patch this weekend haven't been uploaded yet, so I'm posting the other fun I had this weekend. My playlist!
I make 2 playlists per season. Like, "early summer" and "late summer" and this is Early Fall.
Works well with the windows down on an evening road trip out the studio - it's been tested.
Enjoy!
1. Victim of Circumstance - She Bears
2. For Us - Pete Yorn
3. A Million to One - Autovaughn
4. Coney Island - Good Old War
5. Begin Again - Farewell Flight
6. Something In the Water - Brooke Fraser
7. Love You Strongly - Amy Stroup
8. Crushes - Andy Shauf
9. Static Waves - Andrew Belle
10. Sun Hands - Local Natives
11. Go On, Say It - Blind Pilot
12. Break Me Out - The Rescues
14. The Guy That Says Goodbye - Griffin House
Friday, October 15, 2010
My New Favorite Things


If it's true that beards are hip and my clothes aren't, then I'm only a hipster naked. Don't picture that. Sorry if I cause a brother to stumble.
7. Seriously every single thing in this shop. But especially this print.

8. The words of encouragement I've received over the past couple of weeks. I've had the teensiest little struggle with feeling like I have a purpose. But, I have been flooded, flooded, with kind words about this little blog space and my artwork. Thanks, to those of you who were a part of that. I want to hug you.
9. Knowing that I'm going to the pumpkin patch this weekend, which is one of my very favorite places to be. THE PUMPKIN PATCH, Y'ALL!
10. This quote by E.B. White: “I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.”
Have a great weekend! Enjoying the world or making it better.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Playing Dress Up

Do you think 5 weeks early is too early to start packing?
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
8 Days a Week
Monday, October 11, 2010
Oktoberfest

Friday, October 8, 2010
Birdy



I've got my fingers crossed for some more nesting at home time this weekend. What about you?
Thursday, October 7, 2010
#13

I sketched out some ideas for the three of us while they were here. Different locket shapes and letter styles and level of detail, etc. I figured we'd kind of combine aspects of them and each pick whichever one suited our fancy the most. Emily is a traditional, simplistic gal when it comes to design. Christina is very forward thinking and a bit edgy, and I'm somewhere noncategorial. Kind of bohemian and cutesy. Is it possible to be both of those things? Well, this is the design Emily chose.

Which means.... drumroll please.... that I designed a tattoo. I have permanent art in the universe. That's just very cool to me. So cool, in fact, that I put it on my Project Life List a while back as #13. So that's TWO things I've checked off the list now, friends.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
With Much Rejoicing and Fanfare
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
In the Works



I'm working on a coloring book to help the Colsons raise money for their adoption of these three beautiful children. Another idea that I had been dreaming up was a tote bags that we could make to sell as a fundraiser, too. Last night I finally finished up the first draft of the tote bag and I kind of love it.
I know that your heart for the Colsons, the orphanage, adoption, and Junior, Frantz, and Monique is not the same as my heart for those things. But I would like you to consider donating to their adoption fund. Can you imagine a better way to spend $5? $20? $1000? Hopefully soon we'll have coloring books and tote bags that you can purchase. All proceeds from those will go straight to the adoption costs. For now, you can just plain donate, or you can purchase a t-shirt and donate that way.
Here's the link to their blog where you can find donation information, the t-shirts that I designed, and information about the kids. http://colsonjams.blogspot.com/
Monday, October 4, 2010
Magical





I'm pretty sure this picture will make me laugh for the rest of my life. That's a good thing to have in a husband, I think.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Guilty

How much art do you suppose I am able to accomplish in here? If you supposed, 'none' then your supposing skills are spot on. I can't even walk into the room.
I honestly had good intentions when this room started meandering toward this degree of chaos. I was getting ready for a garage sale and a binge and a reorganization. About 3/4 of the way through, magically the above mess happened. That cardboard box on the right is garage sale stuff. That cardboard box on the left is all trash. That broken TV right at the bottom of the picture is my husband's fault. I sure wish I could blame more of this on him.
My ONE GOAL this weekend is to work on this room. I've asked Mr. Hagen to move the broken tv and the trash box today because he's much stronger than I am and I'm hoping my size 8.5 feet can squeeze their way into the room after that. I have high hopes. I accomplish things when the weather is nice. I am positive that I'll enjoy having space to let my creativity flow and produce.
I'm totally guilty for creating a mess, and I'm hoping sometime next week I can prove that my room is capable of loveliness again. I wonder if I can clean with my fingers crossed.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Idea Seeds
One such thought has actually been planted in my brain for years. Literally years. And I FINALLY got to pull it out and put it to use when I made the custom coloring book last week. It was a huge hit. Within a few hours of putting the pictures online, I had 4 people email me to ask me if I was planning to do more of these so they could place an order for one. I had people send me ideas for promoting it and a lot of friends and family encouraging me to take a step in that direction.
About 4 years ago, I knew a little girl from church who was as much of a shoe-noticer as I am. When she was in preschool, she walked up to me one day and said, "oh those are beauuuutiful shoes." My heart melted and my brain started spinning. I thought, 'I should write a little story about her and her love for shoes. And then I could draw pictures to go along with it and print a copy of it for her mom.' And then I thought, 'I wonder if people would pay me to do that?' And then I thought, 'this is the greatest idea I've ever had.' And I thought about it and thought about it and looked up printing costs and researched types of paper and met with a few idea geniuses and talked about it and thought about it more. And then tucked it back up inside my head. Because I don't have the time or the start-up cost, the confidence in my talent or my idea, or the guts to tackle such a project.
But when I made the coloring book last week, I had a new passion for my little seed of an idea. I was loving every moment of putting it together. I loved thinking of ways to make each book completely unique, to make each illustration a refelction of the subject, and all the things the coloring books could be used for. I loved that by making it a coloring book instead of a storybook that the kids would be more involved in it, that printing would be cheaper, and that I would only need about 1/3 of the time for each picture. My little chaotic creativity monster went nuts.
So all this week, I've been talking to some great supportive friends and family who are SUCH encouragers and we've been discussing my idea and discussing prices and they've been trying to tell me that I'm worth more than I think I am and to not be afraid of getting myself into something like this. So yesterday, I FINALLY decided on a price and a package and a plan and I set it free into the world. In less than 24 hours, I had received over 150 hits on the item listing on Etsy.
I've got three coloring books currently lined up to get my feet a little more wet. One is mainly a promotional item for the idea. A sample book, basically. One is a fundraising effort for an adoption that is near and dear to my heart. And the last coloring book is a book for grownups that will not be custom - just one that I can print and have on hand.
As shackled as I've been by the fear of this little idea I had 4 years ago when a preschooler told me I had beautiful shoes, I couldn't be more proud of myself for stepping out and actually trying it. I'm still nervous about it. I'm still insecure about the timing, the price, my own talent, etc. etc. etc., but I'm trying to push through that fear and put value in myself and what I can create.
So basically, I just want to say thank you to all of you who said the tiniest words of encouragement to me. To those of you who said such giant and wonderful words of encouragement, and to those of you who just smiled when you looked at the coloring book. I took every. single. one. to heart and stored it up inside of me.
So here it is. My little seed. The project I've wanted to tackle for four years. You gave me the courage to do it.


Here's the link on Etsy: Steph Hagen Art - Custom Coloring Books
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Red Lentil Curry Soup

Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Sadie's Turning Six!




I really had a blast doing this project. I've already got two more orders for coloring books and some ideas for more. I'm thinking a coloring book for grown-ups is in order. Who else finds coloring extremely theraputic?